I dont think I want to get close to anyone again. I’m too afraid of being incompetent. Disposable. Invaluable. Replaceable. Of having to depend on others for my self worth.

Until I learn to have self esteem and self worth that is not dependent on the opinions and whims of others, I dont want to be close to anyone. I need to learn how to be independent and the only way I can do this is by being alone.